i don't even know what to say seriously, i'm so hurt. and exhausted. i don't think i can cry anymore. i just want another shot. and i just can't have it.

this is what went down:

pour some tea yo (3:23:49 PM): Hey, is there anyway we could talk?

the guy (3:23:59 PM): no

pour some tea yo (3:25:22 PM): God. I'm really sorry, and I can't say it enough to make it count. I just wish we could talk.

the guy (3:26:02 PM): no. this is it. i dont want to sit down and discuss it.

pour some tea yo (3:29:21 PM): Look, I fucked up, I hurt you. You have no idea of how much that kills me. I can't stop thinking about it. But I can't take it back, and I can't change what I did. All I can do is apologize.

the guy signed off at 3:32:17 PM.

the guy is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.
(i changed the name to "the guy" to protect his identity.)

i'm sick of crying, all i want is just a second chance. i just want him to see how much it kills me that i hurt him, and that i just want him back. i want him just to see that i fucked this up because i felt like he deserves better. this is killing me.