It's funny how everyone says that you should talk to your lover/boyfriend/whatever they are to you. I followed that advice like an idiot. The out come was something like being blown off completely. I didn't ever think he would do that, I guess he never thought that I could feel jealous. Because when you're not committed, you're not supposed to get jealous. I fucked up major. I shouldn't have been jealous, it wasn't fair. All I want is a chance to talk to him and figure it out. I mean, I fucked up huge and if he can't give it another shot with me, I get it. I would suck and I would probably drink myself silly to try to get over it, but it would make sense for him to not be able to. Hell, he's so upset that he couldn't even talk to me. I begged and begged. And he just wouldn't/couldn't. I don't know if "I'm sorry" can fix this one. Fuck dude. I REALLY fucked this up.