i'm not much good at ignoring my desire to talk about romance. so here we go, all those who may read this: go away NOW.

i went for a walk earlier and i stopped at the park and went swinging. i started swinging, got some height and closed my eyes. i realized what it feels like just then, swinging feels like...well, it feels like love. okay, maybe not love, but something like love. it feels like talking to the person you like, like talking about everything and nothing until you fall asleep on the key board. so, during my walk, i thought about the way things are going with me. i find it odd that the best people for me are always some far from me. and i find it even more odd that just months ago i thought i was pure lesbian and right now, i don't even find myself attracted to women. it's just odd. yeah. i need to get up early. NIGHT!