i honestly don't know what to do. i want to move so badly and it's killing me that i can't right now. the thought of how the hell i'm going to get the money is a constant stress. i mean, right now, i don't even have a car, my family doesn't have a car and i'm not even going to get into the rant of how retarded the loss of the family car is. but, there really aren't any places around here hiring, if they are, they're hiring for night shifts, and i'd be needing to walk there at night. around here, that really isn't safe. at this point, i'm really concidering the risk, it's the only way i'll get out of here. aunt linda will never give me the money, i can't get a loan, well, i might be able to if i could get a job, but i'd need colaterall and i don't have anything at all to use, i don't have a title to a car, i really don't have anything at all. i really don't know. i guess i'll try to get that night shift at the supermarket, sure it's a mile long walk in the middle of the night, but it's the only way. a night shift would work, i'd get in home in time to see dave for a bit, then get a bit of sleep, wake up to have a little more time with him then hop off to work to do it all over again. i dunno, i really don't. but, i'll figure something out, i always do. i really hope i do, i want nothing more to be somewhere else, with the love of my life and all the good times ahead of me. springfield is basically everything i've always wanted in a town and i just hope to god i'll figure out a way to get there. moving will be like really starting my life. well, the moment i fell in love with dave, my life REALLY started but moving will be like starting the rest of my future. i'll get it all sorted out, at least that's what i keep telling myself.